Today i sleep alone in a room with aircon after come back from ekonomi tuition.
Was such a long time don't feel so calm and peaceful.
I was felt so pressure.
A lot of thing was happen recently.
When i took my HP and i try find someone to chitchat.
Oh my god.
I realised.
I don't even can have a friend to share something with me.
That's scary,really scary.
I was thinking i have a lot of best friend beside me.
Nowonder girls or boys.
I only realise I always have a distance with my friends.
Maybe cause of some sancity of boy, we never said sorry if we made mistake or something.
Well that's including me too.
Sorry seems to be the hardest word to say?
Maybe I not really can felt the happiness after different class.
I seems the trouble maker?maybe.Because i worried a lot about us.
I was hiding a lot of secret.
A lot.
If last year,i sure will told my friend a lot about that.
But.....?
I don't tell scared of arguement with friends.
Scared not cause of they are fierce or full of principle.
Cause of I apprciate every friendship beside me.
Seems like wrote everything on blog is a wrong way.Sorry.
I have been seems like getting worst in communication.
Have been tired to entertaining everyone .
I'm tired.
After diffrent class I was just like be suitable for alone.
And i realised my attitude really different as them.
Was felt a lot that I m out of topic?
After KRS competition the chances we meet together seems more and more less.
And every activity HE will appear.
Hmmmm?
No comment.They treat them as buddy now too.
Well,girl's friends?
Some girl i really try to treat them as good friend.
But i think that's not a right way to pick a good friend.
Was tired to entertainting new girl's friend.
Nomatter what should I do.
I get a name from my buddy.
CHIKO.
Sorry I really don't know what is the point of that .
I really don't know.
But when they did so?LOL.
I don't know maybe that my problem again
Chatting everday doesn't mean that will become good friend.
i Swear.
I have few best friend beside me .
But i broke it.
I broke until it become couple.
My bad,I m just a stupid horny guy.
Well ,
Seriously guy.
I really miss her a lot.
I'm sorry i have been lying for such a long time.
Maybe some guy will feel i miss her cause of other reason?
Don't ask me.I don't even know.
I just knew that i always cherish the memory between me and her.
I was trying to tell my buddies about that.
But when i wana start convcrsation about her.
My brain was like auto-alert about this is something i should never said.
As i promised my buddies I won't sad.
That's why i keep back those words.
I really in bad mood.
I think alone is the only suitable way for me?
I m sad cause of myself.
I m sad cause of I really such a bastard.
I wrote this not for getting sympathy from others.
I just wrote what i felt.
I m so pressure.
This is the only places to vented myself.
Give me a chances please?
I need something to vented myself.
This is my way.
This is Hang.
Who can even understanding me?
Who can even really can chat with me?
was study alone in exam.
I wish to get a not bad result.