Don't Know why?

Sometimes,
I don't know why,
I just don't have those 异性缘.
I don't have lot of girl will come my blog and chit-chat.
I don't have girl messaging or msn-ing me while feeling boring.

I remember I was sooo confidence when I was F3.
I thought girl suppose to be interested to me[Laugh out loud myself ]
Oh ya,I just remember that I don't even have mirror at my house ...==
But after happen something to me about a girl name,YF.
She changed me,Not into better.Its worst.
I keep trying adding girl from friendster,Msn,Messaging.
Ewww,That's so sucks.
Of course,my family still cant afford a mirror for me to look at myself & my image totally sucks.

Until F4,I chased a girl who name EL .I still full of confidence while messaging her.
but I don't know that real life is much different as messaging with girl,especially looks and speaking.
Was acting emo-ing when messaging her,I wish her to get interested into me.
but no one remind me for girl don't even interested to this type of guy.
And I knew she kinda hate me that time,and totally cant even fight with a jerk with that kind of status,totally.
But,feeling lucky me and Ms.EL getting better =)
Don't mind yup.

When I was F5,there was my First love.Ms,J.
Everyone was just like 0.0? when listen about this.
I remember a first taste of chocolate .well,I cherish the smell until today.
Is this that chocolate so nice or smell of love?haha!
First time of girl calling me darling xD
First time of girl holding my hand .
First time of girl lie on my shoulder.
First time of ILY,IMY.
and of course first time of broken up.
Breaking up cause of pressure and lot of reason.
Was so upset while broken up twice.

Due to this reason,She's appear in my life.Ms,X.
She accompany me pass every second when I was missing her.
Due to some reason,both of us falling to each other,I don't know did she?But, I did and very deep until today.
There was the sweet relation ever to me,
Its short,
Its lots of bad comment,
Its pressure,
Its suffer.
But to me,everything just feeling so sweet to me, really.
There was so many weakness in our relation,ofcouse we broke up .
I mad at her while she told me.
I guess the happiest is my buddy,right?xD
was acting so happy while break with her.
After few weeks,I try to get back her.But,she seems cant let go her Mr.N.
I keep trying to get her back,I really wish to get her attention.
I don't know why,I don't even look at myself in the mirror although I keep trying my best to dressed up myself.
And I realised,when the feel gone,that means gone.
Due to this relation,I lose my dignity,people look at me with those F minded ,but they don't know even a shit.
Of course,I gain lot too.I gain?I gain?This feeling,I can't express in words.
I did try my best to letting go I swear,
I said thousand of time I guess.Wish I really can this time.
God a, POPI POPI wa arh!
There was few relation in my High school,going to end soon,so wrote a passage about this.

& not to forget ,to those girl and guys that who hate me.
I don't care, I won't beg for forgiving.
Those guy come and try me yup,remember my name .Oh ya,I just kind of enjoy when spelling APPLOGIZE double P is cool,don't you think so?.



I don't have those street style,
I don't have those height could killing girls.
I don't have those handsome face as Andy Lau [LMAO]

I had a tummy that could supply you oil from penang to Kl.
I had a ugly face could open a movie that name, Sinchan Crayon.
I had a height could acting a role in Snow white.

But,I know God let me lost something,
In somewhere,Sometime.
But he give me that some guys and girls never had,Friends.


Last,
Countdown for Trial exam,4 days.
Birthday ,5 days.

The bloger,
ChiunHang.